Time To Let You Go, Mum!

As previous post, I haven’t grief since mum’s passing. For three years I stayed strong for my sisters, my girls and families, I couldn’t let her go. I turned off my feelings and pain. Until someone in our past came back into my life, my mother’s beau, a man she loved so much she regretted letting him go. He was a great man, he often brings my sisters and I treats, he was like a father figure to us girls. He treated us like his own, we often go camping every weekends. Since we moved to cairns, mum often talk to me about him, I remembered saying to her, “Well, why did you let him go then?” The look on her face was remorse. Maybe it’s fate that he finally found me, maybe mum was guiding him to find me, maybe it was a sign telling me that it was ok to let it go. I cried so much tonight I cursed mum for leaving me too soon. So that’s what grief is like, you cursed your loved ones for leaving so soon as a sign of letting them go! Well that’s mum after all, even in death she is still around. I remember when my first boyfriend broke up with me, I couldn’t get over it and because he was my first love, mum let him over with his friends and the girl. I was really jealous but then I realised maybe it was time to let him go and ever since we became great friends even today. Like I said that’s mum, no matter what happens in your life be it that you lost your loves ones or someone you love died, you gotta let it go and move on.

Now I can let her go and move on.

Cheers mum,
Cynthia xo